Music and peace

I have had a lot on my mind of late. And in the past when I needed to cope with frustration, anger, sadness, etc I would sit down at the piano and play out all my emotions. But there has been very few times where I actually get emotional when playing the piano. And more recently I just dont take the time to sit and hone in my skills..haha. I'm just too busy and honestly, it can be physically demanding to play the piano for a while and I'm just not in that kind of shape. (I know I just have to sit there and move my fingers, but its exhausting). So I found it strange this weekend thats all I felt drawn to do. Just play. The first few songs were...well lets just say I'm pretty out of practice. But then after warming up I was starting to feel comfortable. Last night I sat down after dinner and just played around. I started playing this one song, determined to play it perfectly. Its a beautiful piece, and I found myself in this magical bubble. The whole family was around, but it was only me and my piano and music. Before I knew it I was so overcome with emotion...I dont know if it was everything that has been on my heart and mind lately coming to the surface, but there I was bawling my eyes out as I finished the piece. Then today after a sleepless night, I still felt drawn to pour out my emotion on the keys of my piano. So I sat today and played and played til my poor back couldn't take it any longer. Then I just sat and cried and cried. Now dont go and get all worried people, its good for a girl to just cry it out even when there really is nothing wrong. While I found myself lately questioning a lot of things, there is no doubt power and comfort from the Holy Spirit through music. And maybe my preyers aren't being answered like I want them to be, but at least for that moment my heartache was freed and I felt peace.

On my mind...

“He [Heavenly Father] is our perfect Father. He loves us beyond our capacity to understand. He knows what is best for us. He sees the end from the beginning. He wants us to act to gain needed experience:

“When He answers yes, it is to give us confidence.

“When He answers no, it is to prevent error.

“When He withholds an answer, it is to have us grow through faith in Him, obedience to His commandments, and a willingness to act on truth.” -Richard G. Scott

“Access to our Creator through our Savior is surely one of the great privileges and blessings of our lives. I have learned from countless personal experiences that great is the power of prayer. No earthly authority can separate us from direct access to our Creator. There can never be a mechanical or electronic failure when we pray. There is no limit on the number of times or how long we can pray each day. There is no quota of how many needs we wish to pray for in each prayer. We do not need to go through secretaries or make an appointment to reach the throne of grace. He is reachable at any time and any place.” James E. Faust

Thought of the week....

“I want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles even when her heart is broken, and the one that could always brighten up your day even if she couldn't brighten her own.”

My New Adventure...

I've pretty much done everything there is to do with my hair...blonde, black, brown and everything in between. Short, long, medium. Straight, curly, etc. But I've never done extensions...mostly becuase of the cost and also because the thought kinda scared me...they could turn out horrible- like Kate Gosslin's ugly do!! But I had such a good deal come my way that I just had to try it out...so here are some pics of my new do, which I love and am enjoying soooo much. And frankly, mine are much better than Kate Gosslin's and I didn't even pay anything close to her $7000 disaster! ;)