Music and peace

I have had a lot on my mind of late. And in the past when I needed to cope with frustration, anger, sadness, etc I would sit down at the piano and play out all my emotions. But there has been very few times where I actually get emotional when playing the piano. And more recently I just dont take the time to sit and hone in my skills..haha. I'm just too busy and honestly, it can be physically demanding to play the piano for a while and I'm just not in that kind of shape. (I know I just have to sit there and move my fingers, but its exhausting). So I found it strange this weekend thats all I felt drawn to do. Just play. The first few songs were...well lets just say I'm pretty out of practice. But then after warming up I was starting to feel comfortable. Last night I sat down after dinner and just played around. I started playing this one song, determined to play it perfectly. Its a beautiful piece, and I found myself in this magical bubble. The whole family was around, but it was only me and my piano and music. Before I knew it I was so overcome with emotion...I dont know if it was everything that has been on my heart and mind lately coming to the surface, but there I was bawling my eyes out as I finished the piece. Then today after a sleepless night, I still felt drawn to pour out my emotion on the keys of my piano. So I sat today and played and played til my poor back couldn't take it any longer. Then I just sat and cried and cried. Now dont go and get all worried people, its good for a girl to just cry it out even when there really is nothing wrong. While I found myself lately questioning a lot of things, there is no doubt power and comfort from the Holy Spirit through music. And maybe my preyers aren't being answered like I want them to be, but at least for that moment my heartache was freed and I felt peace.